Part 3 of 3. I think there are several aspects to losing someone. Before this I had lost a Grandma, but you kind of expect that. You don't expect to lose your Mom when you're 30. The closest thing I can relate it to is a break up, at least for me. Because with me, one of the things I mourn in a break up is the loss of a future I had imagined for me and the ex. This was like that x100. I mourn me and my Mother's futures that I foresaw and will no longer come to pass. Its been two months now and I still have moments where I tell myself she's not gone. That that just isn't how this part of our story was supposed to go.